Well, it has been a while since I last wrote. I have a lot on my mind, but I think that I’m very clear, and muddled, about where I am and where I’m going, which may contribute to me not blogging.
I am currently flying to Hong Kong and then on to China, and Australia for a total of three weeks. I am a bit overwhelmed by all the travel I have upcoming (but it should make for some good stories!), which I think is playing a role in where my head is at. I’m really excited about seeing a bunch of people I haven’t seen in a long time – old Chinese and American friends in China, the girls in Australia, and Dan my old boss in Oz, etc – but flying around the world in three weeks is a bit much. Especially when I have a bunch of travel coming up for the rest of the year – 2 weeks in Amsterdam, a week in Mexico and Brazil, and a week in Bahrain. This is the beginning of the home stretch of the year for me and I’m already feeling tired just thinking about it. And that is just what is planned now. Whew.
At the same time, I’m pondering what I’m doing. I have been living back in the USA since the end of March and I have been frantically busy since my return. I have been on the road a lot, probably 60% or more, and then pile all the extras that have gone with this move on top of that – finding a place to live, buying all new furniture, and having to get a car (which I *still* haven’t been successful at yet). I am feeling overwhelmed with everything going on since I moved back, self imposed and work related.
And now I feel like I want to start dating. But who can fit in date with this much going on? It seems like the singles market is ripe in Boston. I’ve read a lot of articles which claim that Boston is one of the best cities to be in if you are single, however nothing indicates that these odds apply to wonderful, attractive, passionate, career-minded thirty-somethings. We will see.
One thing that has gone surprisingly well which I didn’t expect so quickly is I have found a great group of expats that live here. I met a great British guy who has introduced me to literally hundreds of people from all walks of life and cultures. That has been a godsend. Without that I would still be wondering what the hell I’m doing back in this country. (And that sentiment will be magnified 100 percent if McCain and the Alaskan gun-slinging lack-of-experience city-of-100-people mayor mama get elected. I will promptly be moving to Canada. But I digress). Nick, if you are reading this, I owe you for a great deal of my happiness in Boston, so thanks, babe!
But my main thought right now is how do I slow down long enough to enjoy what is happening and make sure I’m living in the moment – right here and now – instead of worrying about all the overwhelming amount of work I need to complete over the upcoming months. This is something I am not very successful at doing. (Are any of us?)
So, my thoughts are focused around taking some time to think about what works for me and what doesn’t. Taking time to get to know my new city. Taking time to get out and date some interesting guys. And taking some time to find my next big thing. It is out there… I can feel it… but I can’t see it. Is all that too much to ask? I am now opening myself up to the universe for assistance.